“God I am willing to homeschool, but I do not want to!”Exert from my journal
Oh my goodness, if you told me 15 months ago that I would be writing a blog post about why we homeschool, I would have said you have lost your mind and have me confused with someone else!!!!
Last spring, my husband and I were trying to decide where and how our son would go to school. He was finishing up his 4 half day a week Kindergarten at a local church. We knew we wanted him to repeat kindergarten due to his late summer birthday.
We had three options that we were looking into for kindergarten in the fall. 1. Public School – Not an option due to where we live and the school we are districted for 2. Private Christian School – Only 5 minutes from our house, but I would need to go back to work in order to afford the tuition and then we would still be spending more money than I would earn due to needing a nanny for our youngest and the hours I would work as a nurse…. this list goes on 3. Local Charter School – There is a local charter school near us and they use a lottery system to allow students into each grade. Needless to say, our son did not get a spot and was put on the waiting list
All of these options were slowly being taken off the list one by one. One day my sister in law (who is an elementary school teacher) and my grandfather both asked me if I would consider homeschooling. I told them both NO. There is no way I am patient enough, there is no way my son will listen to me, and many more excuses….
I continued praying and asking God what we needed to do for our son’s education. Homeschooling kept coming into my mind and one day I wrote in my journal, “God I am willing to homeschool, but I do not want to!”
A week or so went by and then God changed my heart completely and actually put a desire in my heart to homeschool. I told my husband one Friday night before our son’s soccer game that I thought we should homeschool. He looked at me as if I had lost my mind and told me “we do not homeschool love.” At this point I continued to pray and told God “Lord if this is a desire that you have put in my heart, please make it clearly evident, but if this is not a desire from you, please remove it.” Then my husband asked me one night, “If this desire to homeschool is from God why has he told you and not told me.” I took a deep breath and boldly asked my husband if he had prayed about it and asked God for wisdom on if we should homeschool. A week later, my husband told his parents we were homeschooling and the rest is history.
During this time, the following verse kept coming to my mind
“Train up a child in the way he should go,Proverbs 22:6
And when he is old he will not depart from it.”
Homeschooling is certainly not for everybody and every situation. If you would love to talk more about homeschooling or reach out to me please contact me!